It is no secret that I love John! My earthly dad was miraculously healed of a farm accident in Iowa in the 1930s by a mysterious appearance of a “man” (angel) who brought a copy of the gospel of John to him. Before I was born again of God I married John, my second husband, still unknowingly searching for Christ; no human male can live up to that demand if he has not yet been born again of God. In my lowest point I turned to the Word of God and the Living Word (spirit and life; light and love; truth and living water) poured into me for three days and then fire fell and when I got into a tub of water, the Holy Spirit breathed me. I could see a “mist” or “fog” or “cloud-like” substance that was breathing me as I breathed the mist in, and before I knew it I was transported to heavenly realms. I came back to normal, waking consciousness and ran around the house yelling, “there is a God!” “there is a God!!” and every love song I heard on the radio became about God; every sad song of loss or heartbreak I used to resonate with became a song about those who don’t yet know God.
In the divine encounter I had returned to my First Love; the one I had not remembered because the worldly veil was still over my mind and heart; the One I was searching for my whole life and disappointed in not finding in my earthly husbands. I am reminded of the woman at the well. Jesus asked her about her husband as she had had five husbands and he said her current husband was not her husband either because our REAL HUSBAND, our spiritual Husband is Christ Jesus, the Bridegroom who is one with our spiritual Father! We are betrothed to Christ until our Father says it is time to live together in oneness, knowing our Heavenly Spouse as bride! (a personal second coming of Christ). He came to the collective in 70 AD; his holy fire both killing those who after the grace period of 40 years, refused to enter the promised land, refusing the free gift of righteousness, holiness, and perfection in Christ and forming Christ in those who turned to God as Father accepting his ring, robe and feast, not to mention his grace, goodness and glory! He comes now and is to come individually as fire and Holy Spirit: our Counsel, Advocate, Counselor, Comforter, Spiritual Guide, Teacher, Power, Wisdom, Understanding, Knowledge, and spiritual Mentor to remove all antiChrist in us and form Christ in us!
John, the beloved disciple, remained on earth until Jesus came again (John 21:22, 23). I was married to John when Jesus came to me, and now John truly is my beloved as Christ is my Beloved of the Beloved!
My earthly disillusionment,dismay, discouragement, depression, distress, disappointment and distrust of men, TURNED to LOVE of God which allowed me to love and trust God in others! The Joy downloaded next, interestingly also in a tub of water! Surely God works through the river of water of life; water works of God! living water!! The Peace of God downloaded next but took the longest to remain as I had to work out what God worked in me! It took me even longer to learn to love my enemies, those who had offended, hurt or wounded me, but even symptoms of post traumatic stress disorder dissolved in the light of TRUTH. I had to work through trust versus mistrust issues and heal soul wounds which required me to go into the pain, into the fire WITH JESUS to come through transformed, transfigured, transmuted, to transcend fallen human nature to let divine immanence remain (Christ in you, the hope of glory)! When you know Christ in you, you can even have joy in the midst of trials/tests of faith (James 1:1-4)!
The LOVE of God allows us to love one another as ourselves! Just LOVE!!!
God is LOVE and he who does not know God does not LOVE (1 John 4:8)
“Beloved, let us LOVE one another; for LOVE is of God, and he who LOVES is born of God and knows God…the LOVE of God was made manifest…that we might live THROUGH HIM” 1 John 4:7-9
“So we KNOW and believe the LOVE God has for us. God is LOVE, and he who abides IN LOVE abides IN GOD, and God abides in him. In this is LOVE perfected with us, that we may have confidence for the day of judgment, because AS HE IS SO ARE WE IN THIS WORLD” 1 John 4:16-17
Jesus is the light of this world; we are the light of this world (John 8:12; Matthew 5:14). Jesus was, is and is to come the anointed of God; we are to be anointed by the Holy Spirit and fire, be taught by the anointing to ABIDE IN HIM as HE ABIDES IN YOU. The hidden mystery of the gospel is CHRIST IN YOU! THIS KNOWING changes EVERYTHING!!!!!!!
“For the sake of the church, it was given to Paul to make the Word of God fully known to his saints. To them God chose to make known the mystery hidden for ages and generations but NOW made manifest…Christ in you, the hope of glory”